come back home…
hardly believe it been 10 years since that!
I know everything has changed,
seems like I came to another stranger place,
seems like I’m entering the whole new chapter of life
right a miles away,
I remember our beautiful kingdom..
a wonderful waterfall we used to play,
I remember a little girl, it’s you!
I remember my beautiful face, she’s you!
I remember my best pal, you’re my only one!
you are my butterfly….!
now I can’t wait to touch your smile..
At the sudden whole of past memories is revived,
I miss all those little things we did together,
those feelings bitch me up,
thread that makes me feel incomplete..
before completely see your face…
my sister screamed, “No, Elephant, don’t come over there!”
Elephant is my child nickname anyway…
I asked her, “Why?”
she left and turned her head,
she said nothing, but wish me stay and don’t go
I have no time to argue, just miss to see you
I pull my courage and sweep this empty dark road..
this village made me wondering, “what a different place it’ve been!”
I love the smell of this tree, this air, this water, stone and land
I could not wait the moment to hug you tight and kiss you
Million fantasies push me with smile I could not explain
So, here it is…
the waterfall has change, seems like no one take it care!
I know it’s an random space, just the hanging place for you and me
I’m so sad, so regret why never spend once of my time,
to take care this place and our sweet memories,
at least it’s looks like it were..
I could not picture my regret,
but continue my way to you..
I called you my little girl, but I know you’ve been grow up now..
may I have to call you my pretty lady now?
Oh.. God…. She’s always on my mind!
I couldn’t stop thinking of her!
I could not wait,
I wanna see your beautiful face..
this is your house, smell like brand new
there’s a new wide garage and some beautiful flower pots around,
I won’t lie that the gateway looks so elegant
and it was painted not by your favorite colour
something speak : “It’s why too luxurious.. I know you couldn’t afford this!”
Oh sorry, I’m too much!
I forgot that 10 years back was different situation..
I wish you are blessed..
I passed the gateway, knock on your door
my heartbeat is running too fast,
I miss you so much!
I have waited this for whole of my life..
it’s the right time finally…
how I wish God sends thousands of His angels accompany me!
Hahhh…. I’m going to be crazy now!
I press the bell ring, feel so nervous here..
a little cute voice speak inside of home, “wait… I’m coming”
it’s surprising me, “who’s voice? do I get the wrong home?”
I think so!
I turn my back and walk away before somebody open the door
one step, two, three….. NO, it’s too late!
little girl opens the door..
she asked, “Who are you? What are you doing here?”
“What a beautiful face!”, my heart speak inside
she doesn’t look like stranger face to me
this 5 years old girl looks very familiar,
she has very cute smile with her two beautiful pimples!
I get little nervous, “No, kids, I get the wrong address”
I leave this front house
Somebody call me before I leave this gate
“Elephant…..”, the woman voice shout,
shis new voice is ringing on my ear..
I turn my head, but then have nothing left to say..
I was surprised!
my butterfly stand close the door, beside Rock and the little girl
Rock was my enemy in my childhood..
Lord, what’s going on??
Rock put his arm around my butterfly’s waist
“so sorry, Elephant……”, that’s the only word Butterfly said
Rock is smile and staring at me,
he promised me a revenge,
but I couldn’t imagine this before
I’m suddenly insane!
I have no words against this scenery..
I couldn’t say anything..
suddenly I feel weak and numb
It’s a taste done!
It’s almost gone!
this is my mistake!
What do I have to do??
at least gimme a choice….
to kill this memory..